i wish i could  go back in time...

 think before you do something because ur goin to figure out what ur missing and how much u hurt the other person

oh well

peace beezys

lifes just dandy

im really happy right now

i havent been talkin to some of my frends tho..and its not that im trying to ignore them or anything and im not mad..i just dont know why

yea i dont know what else to write

oh well yea last week..i went to lakeridge almost every day !! i went with emilia lindsey and devan..and then sometimes the boys came it was really fun

yesterday i went over to natashas and saw the excorcist!!that was really fun

now today im supposed to go over to simones !! to finish our project ..oh joy

wow so much shit today..it really sucked.

everyone was crying and talkin and spreadin stuff..well today jus really sucked i mean it was one of the hardest days of the year...i couldnt even stop crying and i dont know its so weird wen u look back on things..and u realize what u were thinkin ..i dont know i just hope that this same situation doesnt happen again..i dont think i can take it..i wont . i wont take it...everyone knew about my business today & that didnt really help..i mean i loved their support and them tryin to help me..but i feel like ..it was my business and my feelings and all these ppl shouldnt be talkin bout it. im really happy ..i guess and i dont know thers so many mixed emotions going on inside of me..today i couldnt even think without crying..i dont want to go through that agen. but all that people that talked to me..thank you so much! taylor , brittany spears, keyaira, anjulie..there was so much more of you too ..jessica & devan probably 1/4 of the freshman girls. yeah well ..i dont know lifes been okay lately ..surprisingly my mom has been there to support me and give me advice..she really helped...well i jus dont want to  let this happen to me again.

well this weeks been fun !! wedesday me brent & kari walked to valley view and played some bball then we tried the monkey bars..but me & karis fat asses couldnt even make it across !! lol kari bought me an icecream at superstop!! thanks kari!! thursday i walked all the way down to wags & whiskers from my house with my sister because my dog needed a hair cut..it was okay..my dogs outa shape tho..now he looks like a shaved mole rat! lol well i cant remeber what happened..but i slept over at karis last nite..oh yea i went to marine world! lol ifergot it was fun..i went wit po po re kari & brent..but brent & kari only went on bumper cars! what a waste of money lol..well now karis over at my house ..oh boy shes sleepin over lol ...me her & re had a game today we lost! but oh well then we had in & out then me and kari went to a japanese restaurant...hella yummie! well im bout to go to bed..

<3 carmen

9/13/04-love you babe!